I have been thinking a lot about fashion lately. Clothes, hair, beauty products, etc.
It began during my pregnancy. I discovered I was in love with Sephora. I had heard of women going bonkers over Sephora stores, but I had never been to one of them. Overall, I have been the type of gal to stick to a basic beauty routine: wash my face, put on moisturizer, brush some bare minerals on and head out the door.
That began to change, though, during my pregnancy, when I was feeling frumpy and not too sexy in those maternity jeans and oversized shirts. I really wanted to be that hot sexy pregnant mama, but I really had no desire to spend money on designer maternity clothes that I would never wear again.
So I turned my attention to skin care for nine months. I didn't do this intentionally, but I noticed myself meandering for a long time in Sephora or Ulta, reading up on the latest night cream in Marie Claire, and watching late-night QVC when Philosophy products were featured.
Part of me finds this slightly indulgent and unnecessary. I have traveled to remote parts of Third World countries and seen the most basic standards of living. A part of me rejects the idea of spending extra money on unnecessary things because, well, really, they aren't necessary.
But then, I also began to look at things in another way. In fact, it ties in with the idea of "homemaking."
Homemaking for me, or the idea of making a house a home, is not just in the décor I choose for our mantle, the table setting we use when entertaining guests or the meal I make for dinner. It also is in the overall attitude and environment of our home. And frankly, I feel much more energized, engaged and happy when I take care of myself, and that directly correlates with the energy of the home.
So I have given myself permission. Permission to think more about fashion and beauty and not feel guilty about it. Permission to take a longer shower and use yummy-smelling soaps and lotions. Permission to spend a bit of money on a new lipstick or earrings from time to time.
Of course, all of this will be done frugally, but it will be done not because I "deserve it", but because my family deserves to have a mother and wife who can feel beautiful daily and bring a level of energy to the home that happens when I put a spritz of perfume on or wear extended-lash mascara just because.