HOT SPRINGS, Ark. — Jacob Radosevich remembers every detail about the worst day of his young life.
The Ohio native remembers the voice over the seventh-grade intercom.
"Jacob Radosevich to the office to go (home)."
He remembers the panicked look on his aunt's face, the frantic car ride that followed and the seemingly hundreds of people waiting at the hospital when they arrived. More than anything, Radosevich can picture his older brother, Joshua, as he lay motionless on the hospital bed.
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Radosevich closes his eyes and sees Joshua's face on Nov. 16, 2005, as clear as if it were today. The then 12-year-old sees the indentations circling Joshua's face, the marks still leftover from the jockey goggles he was wearing at the track a short time before.
No matter how hard he concentrates on that framed moment in time, Radosevich can't picture his brother with his eyes open.
"I remember the chairs on the left at the hospital, the people on the right," he said. "I see my dad, who doesn't cry very often. He has his head down and is tearing up."
Joshua Radosevich died that day in Grove City, Ohio, after the horse he was aboard broke a leg and rolled over him during a race at Beulah Park. He was only 16.
Jake Radosevich, Joshua and Jacob's father, was "bred into" the horse racing business. His mother and father trained horses before him, and his brothers and sister rode. Jake Radosevich wanted to ride, but he "liked his food too much" and settled on working as an owner and trainer.
When Joshua died, Jake Radosevich had between 70-80 horses under his care. He keeps less than half that number today, just enough to pay the bills.
"Since he died, I just kind of backed off," Jake Radosevich said. "There are no words to kind of explain, but it just kind of took the steam out of the whole fun of the horse game when I lost a kid."
The Radosevich family suffered in the months and years following Joshua's death, and the youngest of the bunch, Jacob, was no different. The rest of his family had lost a son and brother; Jacob had lost his idol.
He kept a journal of sorts to serve as a reminder of the day of Joshua's death. It includes detailed notes about his emotions, the people he saw and his feelings about Joshua. And he admits his anger toward Joshua in the note for being "a hero" while riding, but he lauds his brother's courage and wrote that Joshua died doing what he loved.
"I wish I could see him one last time, but I know we will meet again. I love you Joshua Scott Radosevich," Radosevich ends the note.
Despite the four-year age difference between the two, Joshua and Jacob shared a common love of horses and racing, just like the rest of their family. They would often face each other in match races on the half-mile track on the back of their family farm, with Joshua offering advice along the way.
Jacob Radosevich watched "replay after replay" of Joshua's accident in the years afterward. He still does today.
"It hit me real hard these last two years," he said. "It's always been there and bothered me because he was my best friend.
"I looked up to him. Everything he did, I wanted to do."
After the accident, Radosevich had times when he doubted his desire to become a third-generation horseman. He loved riding, but he couldn't ride without thinking of Joshua and wasn't sure if he was committed enough to keep his weight down.
Something changed about two years following Joshua's death. He started practicing daily, riding his father's exercise horse, racing horses in the morning and galloping 14 horses a day.
Then the inevitable happened: Radosevich wanted to race.
His parents made him wait until he turned 18 on Jan. 14.
Four days later, he rode his first race at Beulah Park. It was the same track where Joshua was killed, but Radosevich refused to let fear stop him.
"You know going out there something's going to happen," he said. "Always, no matter what. That's there. We do it, and that's there. We just deal with it."
Success came quickly. He won three of his first 10 races and was quickly noticed by agents across the country.
Soon after, Radosevich left home for the first time on his own and moved to Arkansas, where he began racing at Hot Springs' Oaklawn Park. Through Thursday's races, he had finished second in one race and third in two others in 16 mounts. One of those third-place finishes included 31-1 shot Nickelacross on President's Day, a race during which Radosevich led for much of the way before faltering down the home stretch.
He has quickly earned the respect of veteran jockeys at the track, including Luis Quinonez. In his 14th season at Oaklawn, Quinonez started racing when he was 24 and likes what he's seen.
"He's a nice kid, a hard worker," Quinonez said. "He has a smile on his face every day. So far, he's only rode a handful of horses, but he loves to work and try and learn.
"He always says, 'I need to learn, and is there anything you can help me with and tell me?'"
Back home in Ohio, Radosevich's parents watch every one of his races, planning their entire day around them.
Shelly Radosevich, Jacob's mother, admitted to being nervous before each race. However, even now she finds joy in watching her son race.
"I was scared, but it was something Jacob really wanted to do," Shelly Radosevich said. "I just wanted to support him. Each child is an individual. Yeah, it worried me because of Josh's accident, but if they drive down the road I mean, stuff happens.
"I'm nervous every day until he rides and is done. Of course, I worry every day."
Radosevich talks to his parents every day, with his father offering advice and tips. And his father recently noticed that Jacob and Joshua Radosevich look identical on a horse.
Radosevich suspects the similarities come from all of the film he's watched over the years, and he's proud to carry on Joshua's career any way he can.
He hopes to win the Eclipse Award this year recognizing the nation's top apprentice and dreams of riding at Churchill Downs and winning race after race.
Mostly, though, Radosevich rides to honor his brother's name and carry on his memory.
"I just want to dedicate everything to him," he said. "I have big goals, and I hope to get there with him."